A profound sense of existential pointlessness..

Besides everything..

Besides all the trauma’s and all the selves..

Besides every struggle, every conflict..

Every little try..

There is a most profound sense of existential pointlessness entangling and strangling me..

It is a formidable feeling of loneliness and hopelessness..

Of desperation and powerlessness ..

Helplessness..

And it is hard.. to even wánt a ‘tomorrow’

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